If I thought I had a choice this morning, I would've stayed in bed. I did not want to come into work. I hate feeling like this. I know I'm doing things about it, but it's so hard to keep going and I know I'm not currently doing my best or giving 100% in work.
My ears hurt. My eyes hurt. My head hurts. My feet hurt. See how much I can complain today? I know the reasons for it all (ears/eyes/head = hayfever; feet = bilateral plantar fasciitis, or something!) and I am taking steps for all of them, but right now I don't feel like it, I want to crawl into bed and stay there. Depression acting up again? Quite possibly. In fact, it's very possible, considering other events and thoughts going through my head. So steps to control depression: get some fresh air; eat sensibly; hold a pen between your teeth; be active; make a list and stick to it.......
Now of all those things, nowhere does, 'Bunk off work and eat chocolate all day' feature, which is what I feel like doing. I am looking forward to lunch though – I'm hungry, which is unpleasant but dealable with at the minute.
Really what I want to do? Go home and start sorting my house out. Get a load of stuff on ebay – hundreds and hundreds of items, all to be sold, all to make some money. Dump a load of other stuff –charity shops, tip, friends, neighbours – you name it, I'll give you stuff. I may even try freecycle.......but I want rid of a lot of stuff in my house and I want it gone now. There's a lot of momentos I can pack away, a lot of 'momentos' I can just throw out. I am not carting around a pile of junk again from all over the place. So all the bags under my bed, all the bags under the spare room bed will be emptied and gone. I making myself a target of this weekend to clear my room of clutter and NOT to just put it somewhere else!
It all sounds good doesn't it? But being stuck in work for 9hrs a day is not letting me get on with that sort of thing. Quicker I can hand in my notice the better!
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