Signs and symptoms

Signs and symbols. Well ok, more physical signs and symptoms. I woke up this morning at 5am, forced myself to stay in bed til 6, then was very productive for 90mins until I had to leave for work. Since I've been in work – I've not been able to stop yawning, I'm feeling generally tired and demotivated, and my diet this morning has been abysmal so far. Well breakfast was a chicken & stuffing sandwich with an oat bar, snack is a pack of crisps and a pack of mini choccy fingers, lunch is couscous with something and a bag of buttons, all of which leaves me with about 250cals for dinner and very little inclination for work.

 

I'm not sure this is just my normal 'Monday Morning Syndrome'. In fact I'm fairly sure it's not. Added to the fact that the weekend was no prize foodwise and I need to have a look and see what's going wrong.

 

1) I had a fair whack to drink on Friday. That had a knock on effect for Saturday and led onto Sunday as well. I felt awful for most of Saturday and it really was only on Sat night I started feeling normal again. So drinking that much is not good for me. I need to learn to separate 'drinking' and 'being a good hostess'.

2) Which leads me onto point two – I need stop worrying when friends come to visit. They're here to enjoy themselves and to see me, not to nitpic and find things wrong with my home or my catering. I shall work on this since it seems to be getting worse over time, not better.

 

3) Feeling ill as I did Friday morning was unusual and I've still got a sense of that nausea lurking in the background right now. I feel like my guts could explode any minute which may have led to the drinking on Fri (well partly) just to stop feeling nauseous. I know, drinking to cure nausea isn't the best idea but it worked.........

 

4)The foods I had in the house were for the most part sensible and realistic – it was only when I was ill on Saturday, hungover on Saturday, that the problems started and the chocolate became my sole diet. So the trick is to get more picky fruit type things and not just choccy type things. The strawberries in the fridge will help those things.

 

So how am I pulling myself out of this? Well step one is to have a good dinner tonight. There's leftover fajitas for tonight and I have a risotto pack to make up for lunch tomorrow. I will make myself spaghetti Bolognese tomorrow night. Breakfasts will be bacon and sausage – done in George-  so that will be a good lot of protein sorted to start the day with.

 

Money wise? Ebay is a success at the minute – tonight I will spend some hours putting on some more stuff and see what I can make next week. And that's all I can do. Spending some time every night is the ideal, but I need to set up a space in the living room to do this. Possibly that will be tonight's first task along with clearing another shelf in the bedroom.

 

It's all go go go and while exercise isn't appearing much on these lists, there are efforts continuing to include exercise more as part of day-to-day life instead of huge efforts then nothing for a while. So, I'm using the bike for shopping and the gym and walking into town and generally, leaving the car for travels to and from work rather than anything else. Gradually, I know this will work and will be a better long term plan than going nuts in the gym where i will get bored eventually!