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Drunk-tired. That’s what I am today – drunk-tired. I’m exhausted. I’m so tired I’m actually close to being drunk. It’s been a long few days. OK so, Monday was back in work, but frankly, wasn’t focussing too much at all. I was mainly worried about getting through the day, to the airport and away. So I didn’t get much done.

The actual journey wasn’t that bad at all – the flight was grand and quick, there was a long queue at the car rental, but nothing out of this world. I got there eventually and all was in order. Driving to the hotel and checking in, I felt a bit disheartened since it was dank, dark and dreary. I didn’t sleep well and felt uncomfortable for most of the night. Nothing to do with the hotel I might add, but purely my own stress over the following day.

Woke up at an ungodly hour the following morning, showered, had breakfast and then spent an hour to travel the 18 miles to the interview. I ended up being 5 mins late, which was upsetting, but the HR woman was lovely and reassured me in the end. One intro by the head of maintenance for the site, one HR interview, in which I was asked for the same thing 3 times but they obviously thought it was 3 different questions. I came up with example and answers but I felt awkward and as if things weren’t quite right somewhere.....I’m not sure why. Possibly it was a personality clash between me and the interviewers, possibly it was the tiredness.......

The technical interview started better but again, the questions really threw me. There were details in there that even had they asked me the day after the lecture in uni, I wouldn’t have known. Still, I did the best I could, it was just far different to what I would have expected.

In the end I was left feeling unsettled and not quite happy. It was almost as if someone had decided before I arrived I wasn’t a real contender. So, I’m not sure. But either way, I’ll hear within about 2 weeks so we’ll see how it goes.

As for food – well. Abysmal basically. On Monday, I was fending off nerves. On Tuesday I was not eating cos of nerves, then binged. Mcdonalds once I got away from everyone, then two éclairs, coleslaw sandwich and some chocolate when I got home. This morning was mcdonalds for brekkie, then two bars of chocolate during the day with a chicken mayo baguette. I still feel fat, just as I have done for the last few days. So I need to up my veggie intake big time, and lower my stodge. Lower the stodge big-time. I think tonight I will look at putting together a cheap veggie pasta dish or veggie bake or something tide me over til payday (Friday). Aside from that, I’m not sure. I need to think about breakfasts because right now, I don’t feel like eating anything that I would normally have. I’m thinking making my own oatcakes and putting fruit on them or something. I’ll see.

Money wise – well I have a plan. I’m trying to stick to said plan and getting the new job is a vital part of the plan. So if this comes to nothing, it’s the next job I’ll be looking at. It will happen. Eventually.