Desperation hitting in

Yesterday ended up being pretty good. I went into Cambridge after work to see if Rigby & Peller had any fitting spaces – God bless them they did their absolute best to fit me in. turns out I’m not a 38/40DD I’m a 36/38F!!!! So I spent the guts of £200 on new bras and tonight all the old ones are being given away. (To be fair, most of them have outlived their useful life anyway!)

So today, I’m wearing what the lady called a full-cup bra and what I called a normal bra and it’s comfy as anything and it looks good. It actually gives me shape!! I went in in the first place to get a bra for the wedding and that’s sorted as well. And I got the matching knickers for the wedding bra as well.

So I’m on cloud 9 this morning.

Still got residual tiredness, but was able to wake up this morning so I think the 9:30pm bedtime us working well.

Food wise – I’m binging on chocolate. I don’t know why- unless it’s the effect of the tiredness on me, but I’m unsure. I think I need to write that out and find out what’s going on. And STOP BUYING CHOCOLATE!!! It’s ridiculous. I’m spending anything up to £20 a day on food right now and it’s mostly chocolate. I’m seriously debating lighter life to eliminate all food from my diet completely. Maybe going cold turkey will allow me to lose the weight.

Or I could do slimfast for a week or too and see how that pans out? Sort of like, LighterLife Lite or something……..

But it will still require me to stick to a plan and not deviate from it. That’s the part I have difficulty with. Maybe I could live off of Slimfast chocolate or something? Don’t eat for a few days? Anything? Maybe a juice diet for a few days?