Tired baby

Today is a ‘tired’ day so my brain is going all over the place. All my own fault mind, nothing to do with anyone else.

I spent most of yesterday in bed. Pretty much zero activity all day. Same could be said for Saturday. The most energy I expended was walking up and down the stairs a few times. Add in to that two meals eaten out this weekend and two takeaways, along with a LOT of Toblerone and no exercise……well it’s no wonder I’m confused in myself this morning.

Positives this morning.

1)      I got up on time

2)      I had a shower last night before bed

3)      I am dressed properly for work

4)      I had a sensible breakfast (banana, yoghurt and honey), eaten at a table

5)      I listened to myself yesterday and allowed myself a cry and a bath

6)      I was on time for work.

7)      I’ve ‘done’ my hair.

8)      I changed the bed this morning.

9)      I’m wearing proper shoes to work, not flip-flops.

10)   I’m at my desk, sitting upright and semi functional.

It was after midnight last night when I eventually got to sleep. Not really surprising since I was in bed most of the day, but disconcerting and my body clock is a bit messed up today. Also, when I stepped on the scales, I had put the scale back to stones rather than kilos and that was a bit of a shock. 19st 7lbs. That’s a lot. Actually, that’s more than a lot. That’s massive really. It’s something needs to be done time.

But not this morning. I’ve made a start, had a breakfast and didn’t stop in tesco’s on the way into work. I’m going home for lunch and will see about pasta and a tomato based sauce. Al is going shopping today for the week so will have food for this evening.

Aim for today:

-         Drink  2 litres of water.

-         Eat three meals and stop.

-         Go for a walk after work.

That will be enough. No energy to think of anything more. Is LighterLife the way forward? By Christmas, I could be 15stone with them…….with WLR I could be 17stone. It’s still 2.5stone. But it’s not 4.5stone………

Slow and steady, that’s all I can do. I know that. Settle into a routine and keep putting one foot in front of the other………