The weekend shenanigans....

The weekend was eventful. To say the least.

Saturday I went on a Beyond Chocolate course on the basics of following the ten principles. Since the principles are displayed all over the website, I don’t think there’ll be a problem repeating them here, but if there is – someone tell me and I’ll take them off.

Tune in

Eat when you’re hungry

Eat what you want

Put it on a plate, sit down and focus

Enjoy

Stop when you’re satisfied

Own your body

Move

Support yourself

Be your own Guru

I made a commitment on Saturday at the workshop to Support Myself by talking to Al about the experience and what it meant and why I’d be doing apparently crazy things over the next while. I tried to talk to him Sat night, but honestly, the emotions from the day were still far too high and I was way too tired and emotional to talk rationally.

Even something as stupid as the fact that there were two parcels waiting for me at the post office was enough to start me snarling.

So I eventually took myself to bed, after eating the majority of a box of Guylian chocolates, feeling very sorry for myself and had a bit of a cry before going to sleep.

Sunday, I woke up early and went to watch some telly, but went back to bed about half nine and zoned in and out of dreams and nightmares for most of the morning. I eventually called it quits at half 12 and got up properly. I spent most of the day eating – M&M’s, Revels, bought stuffing from Sainsburys, ditto chicken thighs, ditto potato wedges, coleslaw sandwich, tomato sandwich, jarlsberg cheese………and 8 meringue nests.

OK I looked after myself as well – I was still feeling very raw and emotional, but I spoke to Al. He was as supportive as he always is and was asking how he should act, behave, help,  whatever. We talked about things might change about the place – things like the stocking up thing that I might start on in the next few weeks. He is so helpful and he loves me and hates to see me upset……After all that, I put on Mystic Pizza followed by The Spinal Tap, which was weird, but fairly good fun, then Grease came on……it was a good night. I woke up this morning feeling better than I have done in a while.

I had a shower before work and am wearing some of the new gear from Next (this and this) which is making me feel really good about myself. Tonight, I’m going home from work early to get started on the clothes side of things. I need to do a massive clearout and only have things in my wardrobe that fit and that I enjoy wearing. I know I keep saying it, but today I’m going to do it – not least because with the in-laws arriving on Thursday, I need to tidy the house out!!

I’ve not eaten yet today. I tuned in this morning and I am full. I’m actually full to the point of sickness, even after a night’s sleep, so no need to eat just yet. I may or may not eat at lunch, I will see how I feel. But for now – I’m full.