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I wrote the below in answer to a post on a forum I'm a member of
(www.weightlossresources.co.ukin case you're interested :))
 
I'm feeling frustrated and jittery today, unable to focus or concentrate when
that's exactly what I need to be doing. Right now I need to go do some extreme
physical exercise or get really sweaty or something cos I can't stand being in
this office any more with this guy. He creeps up behind me, he wants to know
what I'm doing, (he has no right to ask this and so I keep fobbing him off – I'm
more senior than he is, even if I don't enforce that very often) he wants this,
he wants that, he wants the other......it's like working with an old woman
without the benefits!!
 
I want to hit something, to punch something, to really really hurt myself or
something just to get my mind off things. My right side is aching so badly today
it's not funny – even a 5min walk caused my back and thigh to seize up and I'm
tired of it. I want to be at home and do a full days packing/sorting out, but it
can't happen just yet, I need to save some holidays for later in the year. I may
blow up the punching bag later..........
 
Deep breaths, deep deep breaths and much calm needed.
 
I could do with an affirmation today – I will not kill my work colleague, I will
not kill my work colleague, I will not kill my work colleague.......
 
He is driving me nuts. I'm in the middle of developing some work routines for
new equipment and I need quiet and peace and uninterrupted time to do it. He is
driving me nuts – I fixed an excel sheet for him this morning so it works the
way it should and he has come back to me 3 times to ask questions about why it
doesn't work like it used to –because this way all he has to do is fill in the
numbers on sheet one and excel does the rest. THREE TIMES!!!!!!
 
Then he has a contractor in who is sitting at the meeting desk in the middle of
the office making snide remarks on everything I'm doing (and for that matter
what everyone else is doing as well) and he's driving me nuts, but because he's
not my contractor I can't tell him where to go. The work colleague is also
egging him on and being seriously condescending to me this morning as well so
all in all I want to tell them all to eff off and I'm going home.  But I can't
really do that.....and at least the work colleague, and therefore the
contractor, won't be in tomorrow.  So I have 5hrs 45mins to survive this idiot.
Oh yes, he is an idiot, he is a rather large idiot. And not he's giggling,
GIGGLING down the phone. He's a grown man!!!
 
Sorry – probably not what you were looking for on the wagon today, but it's
driving me up the wall. I can't move cos I need the pc to do what I'm doing and
it HAS to get done today........
 
'I am an oasis of calm'
 
Maybe that should be my affirmation today. I can feel myself tense and jittery,
I can hardly sit at my desk, my shoulders are tense as hell, my breath and heart
rate are elevated – he's really having an effect on me. Maybe a trip to the
bathroom and a bit of meditative breathing is in order.......